Friday Confession: Should I Stay or Should I Go?

I’m starting this post in the midst of a train of thought. If you perceived some of my previous Friday confessions¬†as being a little out there, maybe you should just back away now. Prepare yourself. Brace the nearest stationary object. And settle in for a bumpy ride.

Although I kid, I’m actually very mentally torn right in this instant. I guess that’s sort of my defense mechanism. Skunks spray a bottle of toxic perfume whenever they get scared (thank goodness that’s not the case!) and instead I make cooky jokes.

So, what has gotten me all up in a frantic tizzy? (Note to self: Look up tizzy later to make sure that it doesn’t have some alternate, offensive meaning that may be off-putting to readers). Well, remember that internship interview that I had a few weeks back? I briefly mentioned it in my WIAW post, and… I got it.

And that’s a good thing. No doubt about it, being a freshman and being offered an internship like this is an incredible opportunity. However, there are a few things that I really really can’t get past.

Like the fact that it’s three hours away.

And the fact that I won’t be able to see my friends or family much over the summer.

And the fact that I won’t know anyone there.

And…

I just don’t know.

It’s scary when you’re such a decision-based person like me. Of course I’ve written out the pros and cons list. (In case you are wondering, it equated to an overwhelming ratio of pros to cons).

You see where I’m conflicted, right?

Now let’s add in another little game-changer, shall we?

Today I was offered another job.

“What? Another one?! That’s great!” (At least… I assume that’s what you all are thinking. Maybe). This one is close to home, but it pays a lot less and is basically all labor-oriented. It won’t help me exercise my mind or expand my business skills. It won’t give me the chance to network for future career opportunities or teach me good communication skills. Basically I’ll just become a very good box-packer (which could be considered a good skill in itself to have for all future moving expeditions… Eeep. There I go again with the (…)’s and sarcastic responses).

What it all boils down to when making this decision is choosing what I feel is best for me. I hate it, but deep down I know that the far away internship is what I should be doing.

I HATE WHEN I KNOW WHEN I’M RIGHT, BUT I DON’T WANT TO BE RIGHT.

I want to be blind, uninformed, a skeptic, stuck in my ways.

I want to stay true to my homebody nature and be at peace in my own bed this summer.

But I don’t think I will.

I think I’m going to call that company back and accept this amazing opportunity that I’ve been presented. No regrets… Or at least, that’s what I’m crossing my fingers and toes to the bloody grips of death for (Whoa. I think just a “hoping for” probably would have sufficed there. No need to get graphic!).

When I started this post I planned on writing the first part NOW, and the second part after I made my final decision. But in typing this all out I think I’ve ultimately arrived at my final decision.

For better or for worse, here goes nothing.

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What is your Friday Confession?

Friday Confessions: Fast and Furious Edition

Alright. More homework. So little time to blog.

Ready, set, go!

Confession #1: A few weeks ago we had a warm Sunday. We’re talking REALLY warm, like 6o degrees. Anyways, when I got back to school that night I realized that I had forgot to take my winter coat with me. Usually I’m wearing my coat, so leaving it behind has never been an issue before. If the weather had stayed in the 60’s all week I would have been fine, but NOOOO…. It decided to snow and drop down into the 30’s as soon as Tuesday hit. And I didn’t have a winter coat. Combine that with 10-15 minute walks to class with some of the breeziest winds in the state = One cold Madison ūüė¶ Thankfully my parents felt my pain and on Wednesday night we each drove 1 hour to meet up in the middle so that they could deliver that¬†salvation¬†of warmth! (Along with some much needed food…)

Here is my makeshift cold weather outfit (Note: NOT as warm as it looks!)

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Confession #2: I don’t really know how you all do it. That posting everyday stinkin’ day thing. It makes me feel like a major slacker. Especially when you are able to respond so quickly to everyone’s comments as well. I still haven’t gotten to WIAW yet… I used to pride myself on ¬†being so quick to respond, but man have I gotten lazy! Anyways, major props to you all. Maybe someday I’ll be that put-together.

Confession #3: Another jealous moment that I had this week was reading about all of these races that everyone has been completing. Splits of 7 minutes flashed across the screen and it just made me feel even guiltier that my fastest mile time ever was like 8:30. And I about died after that. Today I think I would be able to (maybe) run a mile in 9:30. I always got super bad chest pains and had a hard time breathing whenever I ran in gym class during school. I would love to be a runner because I definitely need to do SOMETHING for exercise… but I don’t know. I just don’t know.

Confession #4: When I should have been working on homework (actually I should be working on some right now too…) I instead was watching the season finale of Pretty Little Liars. I swear, that last part gave me the heebie jeebies and I jumped just like every other teenage girl in America. I can’t wait for the next season! Plus, a lot of couple drama in this episode, which made me feel much better about my lack of couple “status.” ūüėČ

Final Confession #5: I love PicMonkey. It’s just so amazing. Whenever I think I took a photo that looks good, I pull it up on WordPress and realize that a) It’s way too dark. b) It has that fuzzy quality to it. c) The picture looks like I was on a moving freight train when I took it. Or d) All of the above and much much worse. PicMonkey is my saving grace. My magic genie. My… Okay, I can’t think of any other catchy nicknames, but you get my drift. Even still with the amazingness of PicMonkey my food photos look nowhere near professional.¬†After all, I take every single one of them with my phone. But, PicMonkey takes them as close to perfection as they are ever going to get until I am able to afford one of those expensive cameras that all of the fancy bloggers have… (Hint. Hint. Birthday coming up! ūüėČ )

BEFORE and AFTER’s to prove PicMonkey’s brilliance:

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I also promised a certain recipe this past Wednesday, and I almost always deliver, so here you go!

Coconut and Almond Flour Blueberry Muffins

Makes 6-8 muffins depending on size (I made 6 muffins and 1 ramekin)

Grain/Gluten/Wheat-Free, Dairy and Nut-Free Options, Paleo/GAPS-Friendly

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  • 1 cup almond flour (replace with sunflour for nut-free option)
  • 1/3 cup coconut flour
  • 1/8 tsp salt
  • 4 eggs, separated
  • 1/4 cup honey
  • 2 tbsp ghee (or coconut oil)
  • 1 banana
  • 1 tsp vanilla
  • 1 cup blueberries (fresh or frozen works)

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Directions:

  1. Preheat your oven to 325 degrees and grease your muffin tins with ghee (or other baking oil).
  2. In a medium-sized bowl combine the first three dry ingredients.
  3. In a food processor whip the four egg whites until stiff. Add the honey, banana, ghee, and vanilla and combine until smooth.
  4. Divide the batter among the muffin tins (approximately 1/3 cup of batter each). 
  5. Then drop a few blueberries to each tin and press down so that they sink into the batter.
  6. Bake for about 40 minutes (oven temps vary greatly as does the recipe if you use fresh vs. frozen berries so be forewarned!). 
  7. Let cool before removing. Enjoy!

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What do you have to confess this Friday?

Don’t you just love PicMonkey? What’s your favorite feature?

Did you watch the season finale of Pretty Little Liars? What did you think of it?

Final Friday Confessions Before Spring Break

This post may seem a little random and rambling today. And that’s because it is. I have one more class standing between me and Spring Break and boy am I ready to go home!

To make this random post seem a little more organized, let’s do it in list format, shall we? Here are my Final Friday Confessions Before Spring Break.

Confession #1:

I’m sort of feeling lost on this blog right now. It’s not a feeling of “I want to stop blogging,” but more like a “What direction am I heading?” type of thing. Recently I have been posting a lot of recipes that I myself can’t eat. Part of me feels guilty for doing this because it’s like I’m advocating for food that I’m not eating myself. It makes me feel sort of like a¬†hypocrite¬† even though I’m upfront about every recipe that I don’t try personally.

Confession #2:

Looking through my recipe page on this blog, I’m feeling very¬†nostalgic¬†about all of the food that I used to make. I have about a gazillion variations of microwave protein bread recipes and not much else, but it’s almost ridiculous how much I miss them. Oh, and peanut butter. This week I have been having a serious peanut butter craving. Melted on top of a crispy English muffin.

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Confession #3:

I have an internship interview on the Wednesday of Spring Break. I told this girl in the comments of one of her posts, and that’s when I realized that I hadn’t shared it on the blog yet. I don’t really want to say much else for fear of jinxing it, or whatever else could happen by posting things in a public space. All that I will say is that I have very mixed feelings about the whole upcoming experience. Excited. Dreading…

Confession #4:

Sometimes I feel like I’m alone in my thoughts. Then I come across a gif/meme on Pinterest and everything is better.

Cases in point-

Confession #5:

I just finished filing my FAFSA yesterday and my EFC was way higher than I expected. It’s one of those times where your parents are too “rich” for you to get financial aid, but not “rich” enough to cover all the costs. If my dad dies, Bill Gates, will you marry my mother?

Confession #6:

I’m liking this confession post way more than I should. It’s nice to get some of these thoughts out of my head and out in the real world. I suppose I should be confiding in my best friend or something, but you guys can be¬†substitutes¬†just for today, alright?

Confession #7:

Religion doesn’t come up on my blog at all normally, but today it will just a little bit. I’m Lutheran, which is broken off of Catholicism, and as such I celebrate Lent. If you don’t know what Lent is, it’s basically a time where you give up something for 40 days like Jesus did when he was being tested in the desert. In sixth grade I gave up pop for Lent and haven’t drank it since. The past two years I gave up refined sugar. This year though there was nothing I could give up in my diet that I hadn’t already. So, instead I decided to give up my negative comments about other people. I’ll admit it, I can be very quick to judge and criticize others. Thinking about it now, I talked snarkily about one of my teachers today. Completely unnecessary. ¬†Overall though, I’ve been doing much better. I even gave up GOMI 100%. If you read GOMI on a daily basis, you should try giving it up for just a few days. I feel so much better without all of those negative thoughts floating around me. Monkey see, monkey do.

Confession #8:

I’m tired and should be going to bed now, but I usually just ignore these signs of fatigue and stay up late on the computer. As soon as I’m done with this last confession, I’m getting ready for bed. Over Spring break I really need to work on catching up on my sleep.

Confession #9:

I lied. One more confession. I promised a recipe from the teaser picture that I left you all on my last WIAW. Sorry, just not today. I also haven’t gotten to any of the comments yet, but I promise, I will soon.

Peace, love, and happiness… It’s almost Spring Break!!

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Do you have anything to confess?

Did you give up anything for Lent?

What is the difference between a Meme and a gif?

Edited to add this last final image from Pinterest. I hope it makes your day. It sure made mine.